Job Disatisfaction

I not a workaholic but somehow job satisfaction is the main factor for me to totally involved in my work.too bad!!just keeping choosing the wrong field and confuse and lost of direction all the time.been long time no update my blog due was slacking around (and kinda hate my blog design),day by day,month by month.

Was keep shouting at workplace that I want to commit suicide,well.......just kidding only but the boldness making me sick and thinking of suicide,really frightening.been working so long time,this is the 1st time I experience this type of feeling.

My friend suggest me resign.that thing in my mind been for long time,the thing is I not PR (Permanent Resident) nor Singaporean,so how can I anyhow resign.The best solution is after found job that I really like then resign.I don't want to change job all the time.In that way,I wont success and won't reach anywhere.I don't want to be a career women but I want jobsatisfaction.Thing been uneasy for me recently for no reason.I always think so much.I have to think so much,either for mine or mine family future.Don't want "that problem" amusing our family.