Rainny Blue blue day=My Mood

Today have to drink bittergourd again. ......whenever feeling unhappy will drink or eat bittergourd because after drink it will at least feel better for no reason.something has happened that I can't write it over here.this time duno will take how long to recovered.
still remember last time I take almost 3 years to recovered that's only is after I have come to Singapore then only recovered.
Althought have told mine best friend already but he couldn't do or say much and me also no feel better although say it out already.
Thing just always happened in short time that you can even balance yourself yet but already fall down.seem like have to take up some courses to make myself busy forget everything,,,,,,everything.....
.......my heart so painful.....wana cry but just couldnt since crying not gona help out anyway.
hope after trip from K.L . I will b ok.